I wonder why I became a community assistant sometimes. I really do. I get treated like shit by people daily. I’m called - bitch, fat ass, loser with no life ect.
And I should also ” lighten up and have some fun because I’m in college.”
Let me stop you all right there.
First of all, I’ve had problems with my weight my whole life. It’s always a constant battle. I know I’m not perfect - so sue me. I’m certainly not a bitch, but I’ll be one when I need to be. And you know what? I’ll kill you with kindness. Because I know it pisses you the off. And it shows that you aren’t winning.
Now, let’s touch on the having fun part.
I’m sure because I’m in college, I’m supposed to go out every weekend and get, like, totally wasted, not remember a damned thing, and be completely irresponsible and an empty wallet.
So, what is my idea of fun? Coffee, dinner, lunch with friends. Going to the movies. Laughing with friends. Swing dancing. Salsa dancing. Sketching. Watching Big Bang Theory. Reading a good book. Designing things( that should probably be at the top of my list ). Enjoying the life that is around me. And not needing alcohol be my personality. I’m not denying that I don’t drink - I certainly do. I’ll have a beer every now and again. Or a glass of wine or two. But I don’t over do it. Just because you’re living on your own and go to college, doesn’t mean you’re responsible.
I’m determined to make sure that this job isn’t going to make me bitter. I’ll Damn well make sure that it doesn’t.
I just keep telling myself that if I work my ass off now, it’s going to pay off.
I know that I’m not going to be liked by everyone, but you know what? Don’t hide behind a moniter or a smartphone on an anonymous confessions page. If you’ve got a problem with me, say it right out. We are all entitled to our opinion. We are all too scared now a days that we all hide behind technology so we don’t have to face the other persons emotions and reactions when we have something bad to say.
And in the end when you think about it, it’s another act of bullying, and another why to, and it’s harder to catch because it’s anonymous. It’s a on-going cycle that’ll never end.